I want to jump in the deep, deep ocean of chaos,
And I want to drown-
Drown in the hustle and bustle,
In the noise, in the excitement,
In the beautiful mess of our lives.
I want to fall headfirst
Into the blue hues,
Until I reach the red beneath.
I want to scatter,
I want to smash into a thousand fragments
And flow in every direction possible.
I want to bleed the colours of pain and love,
I want to cry melodies of the birds.
I do not want to run, I want to fly,
I do not want to dive, I want to plunge,
I do not want to live,
I want to be alive.